artschool girlfriend

Watch the Girl Destroy Me

Hey God, are you up there?
I know it’s been awhile but I’ve…I’ve been away.
- Possum Dixon

This was supposedly an ode to my earliest influence, Shannen Doherty. But as we both grow old, her being crazy and me just growing, she suddenly look ‘unappetizing.’ I would still love her had she been more uncrazy, and yeah, sober.. Hate her lips right now actually..

Growing up I was looking for an influence, an inspiration. Yeah there are a lot of amazing and gorgeous movie stars out there. But no one seemed to fit my liking… until this certain star came along.

We shall call her, Star Wick.

For years now, I have been idolizing her. For years now, i am enthralled by her beauty. Yes, enthralled and beauty will be used in the same sentence, if only to describe her. I haven’t got hundreds of photos of her, but this one photo is forever etched in my envious brain. Gawd she is so pretty.. and cool, to top it at that.

She is the flutist and pianist for Ozma, a band from California that my sister introduced to me. See how cool she is. They’ve disbanded and now they are back together again.. Thing is, unless they have a gig in Asia, that’s the only time i would get to see them.. Unless, for some cosmic universal bomb reverse whatever thinggy, i can see them on a live set, anywhere that would happen to be.

Anyway, amongst all the lay-dehs i admire most, she’s the one i most wanted to be.. Like what they say in MTV, “Why Can’t I Be You?”. Argshhh… She is almost everything that i want to be. Almost, because i still want me to be a part of me, plus looking like her. get me?

I’m blabbing. And I love her.